The Path of Dharma Teachings

Recent events have stirred in me the recognition of the futility of samsaric pursuits and the excellence of the Dharma. I am moved to seek the path to ultimate happiness through the Buddha's teachings, first by "taking refuge (in the Buddha, the Dharma, and the Sangha)," the act by which I declare myself a Buddhist. Furthermore, I shall explore the possibility of becoming a Tibetan Buddhist monk. I find a great affinity for their way of practice.
This would not be the first lifetime during which I had done this. I have memories of being an Indian man who entered a Tibetan Buddhist monastery. Actually, I shall probably have an easier time than I had then. First, I have had experience of the monastic life as a Russian Orthodox monk. Second, I shall not have to leave my own country to follow this path. In fact, I may not even have to leave my own part of this country since we have a local Dharma center nearby and monastics in the Tibetan tradition in a nearby county. We even have monks of a different tradition right here in Plant City.
I approach this in a much healthier fashion than I did my entry into Christian monasticism. I now seek to follow the path to true happiness and Enlightenment for the benefit of myself and all sentient beings.
I understand the truth of Lama Zopa Rinpohe's words, "Generally speaking, common people in the world at large follow attachment. To them, a good life is one where success is measured by external development—the accumulation of more, more, more: wealth, possessions, cars, friends, family, children, grandchildren, great-grandchildren, and so forth—external, visible signs of prosperity. According to attachment, this is the best kind of life to lead. But what's behind this quest?
"Actually, what everybody wants is peace, happiness, and satisfaction in their hearts and minds. That's what everybody is looking for. The trouble is, most people don't know how to find it. The only method they have for finding fulfillment is external development. That's all they know because they lack a Dharma education. So, even though they want peace of mind and satisfaction, they have no method other than the external one. No matter what they do, they always finish up, as the Rolling Stones so aptly put it: 'I can't get no satisfaction.'"
For several years now, I have sought to leave behind my celibacy, having renounced my previous monastic vows both privately and personally and publicly and formally. I have sought the opportunity to have sex, but such an opportunity has eluded me. Furthermore, the development of prostate problems including a "lump" in the prostate is likely to remove the possibility of sex, because of the likely side effects of the current forms of treatment. Finally, at my age I shouldn't be wasting the little time I have left in this lifetime pursuing transient samsaric pleasures at the expense of more important efforts toward something more lasting for the benefit of myself and all sentient beings.