Yesterday, I finally had my prostate biopsy. The time that elapsed between the appointment with my Primary Care Provider at which we discussed my PSA reading and my Urology Clinic appointment was mercifully short. It was not particularly a trial of patience to wait for the first step toward finding out whether the PSA value was significant.
In contrast, the interval of several months between a nurse practitioner finding at least one clearcut lump in my prostate and the biopsy which can definitively reveal the true condition of my prostate has been a trial of patience. While I admit that this has been a stressful period, it has not been because of fear of death, but rather occasioned by the lack of opportunity to plan a course of action to deal with the problem. Yet another wait has begun since I was told that the results can take from a couple of days to four weeks and that the time factor has nothing to do with the outcome.
Nevertheless, all of this has served quite effectively to refocus me and restore my awareness of my mortality. This has served to help me remember that there is nothing more important than Dharma practice and no better time for it than now. Furthermore, what more valuable thing may I do with the balance of my life? And this is not about "saving" me but rather about helping all sentient beings on the path to Enlightenment.
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