In my depression, I wrote very hurtful words about my sister which wounded her deeply. She has gone so far as to say that she would never go to Katsel Dharma Center again. It is pretty sorry state of affairs when the words of someone who aspires to be a monk and spend his life in service to the Dharma do such a thing!
As I read back over what I wrote, I can see that I overstated the circumstances, speaking from the midst of my depression and the frustration that I feel from the limitations from my recovery from the radiation therapy. Depression has nagged me throughout the whole process of diagnosis, treatment and recovery. Usually, each bout has been of short duration and easily handled.
My sister and I have both been under stress lately. I guess we just got to be on each other's nerves too much. It seems that we can say the most hurtful things to those to whom we are closest. This is just what I have done, never intending to do such a thing.
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